stillness
Father - I pause. I pause again. I close my eyes and fill my lungs with a deep breath. I breathe You in. I know You are here. Here with me. Your presence is what I need, what I seek, what I love.
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His brow dripping with sweat, his eyes dart all around, and then it happens. The first stone flies. He holds his breath. Contact. A sudden force hitting his body, shock exploding through his brain, and then the pain. Excruciating pain. No time to process anything else because here comes the next one. It drops him to the ground. Everything goes dark.
Read Moreexpectations
Every day I have expectations. I expect things to go a certain way. I expect that if I do the right thing, then good things will follow. I expect if I treat people in a respectful way, then they will respect me. I expect that if I anticipate others needs, they will do the same for me. If I accidentally mess up, I expect they will understand it was just a mistake. Even if I don’t say it out loud. In everything I do, I expect a particular outcome.
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He calls to me. Calls my name. Speaks to my heart. He is guiding me, shining a light on my path, and pointing me where He wants me to go. Where I want to go. I know He is right. I feel it inside of me. The moment has a hold of me though. I’m doing the opposite. I can’t explain why. A perfect storm of lethargy, apathy, and rebellion. My defaults have control. Then it’s over. The moment passes, and I’m left with emptiness. It’s too late. I missed my opportunity, and all that is left is regret. An aching pain coupled with an echo in my mind saying why? Why did I do this or why didn’t I do that?
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This one is for you today. If you have read some of my previous posts, you will have noticed that prayer always plays a part in every one of them. Prayer is very core to me, even though it has been a struggle at times. I want to know how I can pray for you, right now, today. Comment, email, DM, whatever. I want to pray for whatever is going on in your life, right now.
Read Moreblessing
I tried something out this year after a recommendation from a friend. At the end of last year / beginning of this year I prayed for God to reveal a word to me that would guide me through 2019. I strongly felt my word this year was blessing, even though I prayed for a different one. I still struggle with it.
Read Moretension
I’ve always struggled with prayer. It’s something I cling onto in good times, struggles, and in between. I’ve prayed big prayers and seen them answered, but still so many that were not. I’ve also prayed tiny prayers with zero expectations that He would “waste” His time on them and seen big things out of them. But still I struggle.
Read Moreinvitation
Invitation. The word has a great feeling to it. It makes me think of parties and fun and doing something out of the norm. It brings with it an inherent sense of inclusion too. As if I made the list. I’m in. I have been invited into something good.
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