When it comes to hope, I seem to put myself in a self-protective state. I don’t want to be let down again, so I hope for things that are either guarantees or things that simply don’t matter in the long run. Things that if they don’t happen, then I won’t be disappointed. But really, is that even hope?
Read MoreHis brow dripping with sweat, his eyes dart all around, and then it happens. The first stone flies. He holds his breath. Contact. A sudden force hitting his body, shock exploding through his brain, and then the pain. Excruciating pain. No time to process anything else because here comes the next one. It drops him to the ground. Everything goes dark.
Read MoreEvery day I have expectations. I expect things to go a certain way. I expect that if I do the right thing, then good things will follow. I expect if I treat people in a respectful way, then they will respect me. I expect that if I anticipate others needs, they will do the same for me. If I accidentally mess up, I expect they will understand it was just a mistake. Even if I don’t say it out loud. In everything I do, I expect a particular outcome.
Read MoreI’ve always struggled with prayer. It’s something I cling onto in good times, struggles, and in between. I’ve prayed big prayers and seen them answered, but still so many that were not. I’ve also prayed tiny prayers with zero expectations that He would “waste” His time on them and seen big things out of them. But still I struggle.
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